Feeling Hot Hot Hot

Our air conditioner decided to break down this week.  Super exciting.  I knew something was wrong when I went into my house on a 90 degree evening, and it was warmer inside than it was outside.

Lovely!

Luckily, Lance's sister has a window AC unit that she's letting us borrow until we get it fixed.  I feel like I live in a tiny apartment, since we're pretty much confined to the basement, unless we want to melt.

We had a guy come out on Saturday, when it happened.  $150 dollars later we were in no better of a situation, and we had to wait until Monday until we could get it fixed.  Well, sort of.  The guy said if we just wanted to replace the part that was broken, they should be able to do it Monday.  But, he recommended an entire new system, and said they probably couldn't do that until Wednesday.  Yuck.


I'm having a hard time keeping up with Lily's eating these days.  Since I've started working at night, Lance has been feeding her pumped milk from a bottle, and I pump when I'm done working for the night.  This was going well until Lily decided she needs 10oz of milk between 5pm and 10pm.  I can only pump about 6.  We ran out of pumped milk today so we fed her a bottle of formula that we got from the hospital.

I feel like I'm the only person I know who was seriously 100% exclusively breastfeeding.  I don't know if this is true or not, but either way, I feel like no one will really understand how upset I was about having to feed Lily the formula.  I feel like a failure. I know it won't hurt her, but it's definitely not something I want to get in the habit of doing since breast milk is so much better for her.  Formula would be so much easier, and I can't help but wonder if I would start losing weight if I stopped breastfeeding.... but then I realize I'm being selfish and I need to do what's best for her as well as I can.


Weight loss, schmeight loss.  Tonight my dinner was sweet cherries and Coke.  Yum!  I didn't weigh myself today because I've stopped caring.  I can only be disappointed so many times before I fold.  I guess this way I can be happy about anything that decides to come off now, be it 8 ounces, or 2 pounds.


My mom and sisters are in town! My mom is staying with me and my sisters are staying with friends.  My dad flies out next weekend, and Elise flies out July 3rd.  Family reunion! Yay!


Tonight Lily rolled from her stomach to her back three times.  It sure was cute!  I miss her when she's sleeping.  She still sleeps about 12 hours at night, and now I've got a routine down where she takes a nap each day!  The nap varies from 1 hour to 4 hours.  Usually it's about 2 hours.  It's pretty nice!  She has started "talking" to us more.  It's more like a squeal than anything else, but it is adorable.  She likes to suck on her thumb and forefinger on her left hand, and she is constantly gagging herself by sticking them so far back in her mouth.  I wonder if she'll continue to suck on both of those fingers as she gets older.  It is quite strange...

 Here we are at the Strawberry Days parade.  Lily loved it!  She passed out about 30 minutes before it was over.  I think she really liked the marching bands.  It was a fun day!

That's all for now.  I've got to go attempt to pump another 10 oz...

Disappointing

I only weigh myself on Sundays.

It was very disappointing to weigh more this Sunday than I did last Sunday.

I have no idea what's up with my body.

This week I'll live on water, celery, and prenatal vitamins.  Not.even.joking.

Current Stuff

Let's just say I haven't posted in a while because I've been really depressed lately, and no one likes to read a blog where the writer is always complaining about how horrible their life is, when really, their life isn't horrible at all.

So, that being said, here are some good things that have happened lately.

My little family has been spending a lot more time with Eric, Katie, Mabel and Jared lately.  I've been loving it!  We live so close and yet hardly ever saw each other, so this is really good.

You know how there are some people out there who just really make you feel good about yourself?  Not in an "I'm better than you" way, but, because of how they talk to you and the way they treat you, and the things they say.   Well, Katie, my sister in law, is one of the those people.  I don't know what it is, but I always feel better about myself after hanging out with her.  She's just nice, and throws compliments left and right, and it really brightens my day.

I went to Seven Peaks today with Lily, Eric, Katie and Mabel.  Let's just say it was difficult taking an infant to the pool, and there were a lot of tears from both Lily and me.  But, once we got there and got in the water we had a good time.  It was just a lot of work to get to that point, so I'm not sure if I'd want to do that again without Lance.  We'll see.

Today when Lance was leaving work, he called me, as he usually does, and I happened to be crying at that time (that's just what happens when you're trying to work and your baby is screaming and you can't get her to stop, and you're pulled in so many directions at once, and people are waiting for you to finish something...).  Where was I?  Oh yeah, Lance called me and realized I was having a hard day, so he brought me some beautiful flowers.  I'm not a flowers girl, but it was a really nice thing for him to do.

Lily is cute, but stubborn.  She's very picky.  I guess we both are.  She's basically a little copy of myself. Boy, am I in for it!

I ordered my first Bountiful Basket last week!  I first heard about it back in October from my grandma.  She was really excited about it, and I always wanted to try it but thought I woudln't finish it before it went bad.  Well, I've decided to eat healthier, and that includes fewer processed foods, less meat, and more fresh fruits and veggies.

On a side note, I heard that 51% of what you eat in a day should be RAW.  That's a lot of fresh fruit and veggies!

So, after committing to this "diet", I've realized I can eat a lot of fruit and veggies in a day.  It has been wonderful!  I'm also excited for the things I"ve never tried before, like kale.  I've never had kale!  On the Food Network they often pair it with bacon, so I found a recipe that has bacon and apples in it.  Sounds so delish!  I can't wait to make it.  I can't wait for my next basket!  I'm only going to get one every other week, because it is a lot of produce, and it's really only me eating it.  Let's be honest, Lance isn't the most veg-tastic person out there. ;)  But it's OK.  I made chicken caesar salads the other night and that got him to eat the romaine at least.

Today, Yesterday, Tomorrow

I went to H&M this evening to buy a swim suit.

This was a terrible idea that ended in tears.

The size I thought I was ended up being two sizes too small.  Not to mention I don't look good in a swimming suit anyway. I feel so much better about myself when I just hang out in sweat pants.  So basically, I knew I was a lot bigger than I used to be, but I didn't realize that I was THAT much bigger than I used to be.

But OK.  I'm sure you're all sick of hearing me complain about my weight.


We're going swimming at Katie and Eric's tomorrow.  I really like hanging out with them.  They make me happy.

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The other day when I was going to attempt to do a workout while wearing Lily in my wrap didn't go so well.  She got fussy before I turned on the DVD.  So I took her out and put her in a swing.  She was fussy for a while, but fell asleep shortly thereafter.  She slept long enough for me to work out AND shower.  Score!

Today's workout was OK.  I waited to start until she went down for a nap, but she woke up about 5 minutes in to it.  I brought her downstairs and put her in a bouncer.  She was pretty fussy, but not so fussy that I had to stop.  I'm making progress!

The workouts are still pretty difficult. I have a long way to go.

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While Lance and I were at City Creek tonight, we decided to eat at Sbarro.  We ordered our food, and they charged us $11 something.  After paying we thought that seemed really cheap for how much Sbarro really is.  Not thinking much of it, we sat down and ate.  I asked Lance if they charged us correctly and he said, "Nope, they didn't."  I looked at the receipt and they had under charged us by $4.  I wrestled with myself the whole time I was eating.  It was really like I had two angels on my shoulders, one good one bad.  Finally the good one won.  I knew I was raised better than to just let it lie.  My parents taught me to be honest, and to not steal. Even though it was the employees' mistake, I believe not telling them would be like stealing.  Also, I know I want to raise Lily better than that as well, and if something like this happens when she's old enough to know what's going on, it's good to have at least one practice round under my belt.

I was scared.  

I decided I would go get refills, and then tell them they under charged me.

Yeah, it was awkward.

One girl was getting my refills and I said, "I think you guys under charged us.  We ordered two combo meals, but you only charged us for one combo meal with extra bread sticks."  She looked around, kind of confused.  Then I said, "Is there a way you can ring up the difference?"  She just shrugged her shoulders and said, "It's on me tonight."  I said, "Oh, ok.  Thanks!"  There was another Sbarro employee standing right there and she asked, "What's going on?"  And the first girl said, "We under charged her."  Sbarro employee number two said, "Oh, how honest of you!" in a pretty awkward way.  I think I just blushed.  They told me to have a good night, and then I walked away with my drinks.

All the excuses the bad angel was giving me seemed ridiculous after the fact.  Who cares how awkward it is?  It's not like I'll ever see them again.  And, if I do, then I'll be remembered as "the honest girl".  What's so bad about that?