I wrote this ages ago, but never posted it.
Lily and I have been in Utah for three weeks now, and the past three weeks have been a roller coaster of emotions.
It has not been easy, but I've tried really hard to stay positive, kind, and happy.
I miss my husband, most of all. I've never been apart from him for so long. I am a fairly independent person, but when he's gone I feel like I can't and don't want to do anything. But I've been pressing forward anyway, trying to occupy the time and really take advantage of all this extra time with Lily.
I don't have a car here, so it's difficult to do what I want to do, when I want to do it. I'm very lucky to have Elise with me all day. She works the same schedule I do. But she and Aziz share a car. So Elise is without a car until the afternoon, and then we have about three hours to get things done until she has to leave for work.
Adjusting to the new time zone wasn't difficult. Getting off of work at 1 am is much better than 3 am. But now instead of vegging out or taking a bath, I talk to my sisters, and sometimes Eric, and I still get to bed really late.
Lily can sleep upstairs, but I've enjoyed snuggling with her. I love coming into our room when I'm done working and see what silly position she's sleeping in. She wakes up with the sun, but I do my best to keep her occupied in our room until at least 9 or 10am. Then I roll out of bed at 11. When we have our own place I will get up earlier. But right now, with this living situation, the later the better.
My parents are currently hosting Eric's family as well as me and Lily. The owner of the condo Eric was renting decided to sell, and Eric and Katie are house hunting, so they're staying here for the time being. Elise and Aziz live here as well. The basement is mostly "theirs" but they've been gracious enough to let me use their second bedroom, and Elise lets me use her computer to work on after I put Lily to bed.
It's nice having so much family around, but not without its challenges. The biggest challenge is Lily and Mabel. They fight a lot.