Tuesday, August 30, 2011

Thank You!

Lance is amazing.  Really.  I always knew I married a great guy, but he's seriously stepped it up since we've been pregnant.

He used to complain about driving too much and hated our drive to and from work, including the traffic and road construction.  When we found out I was pregnant, he decided he'd do all the driving because it's too stressful on me.  I told him it wasn't a problem but he insisted on driving to and from work every day.  (That's how I can read so many chapters of the Book of Mormon each day... I'm not driving at all!)

Dishes. I hate doing dishes.  I think Lance hates it too, but he doesn't complain about it.  A few times he's done it without me asking him to, and the sink was extremely full too.

Laundry.  Another task I loathe.  I don't mind separating the loads, but after that I hate it.  Lance has been all of our laundry the past few months.  He's been doing a great job too.  Hang dry clothing are being hung dry. Whites are being bleached.  It's been awesome.

Yesterday he took the day off of work an I came home to a clean kitchen, a clean bedroom, and a clean bathroom.  I was super impressed.

I feel so lazy.  I do cook, and I do dishes sometimes... and I've been cleaning too.  But he's doing awesome.

We took off all of our handles on our kitchen cupboard and drawers and I painted them all so they'd look nicer.  They're now bronze and red.  Very hot.  He installed all of them when I finished painting them.

My house is getting nicer each day.

Monday, August 29, 2011


That's the one word that can describe my weekend.

Layla needed to get some shots, so we made plans to go up to the Humane Society with her and Bentley.  After thinking about it, I thought maybe we should take our cat, Abby, up there as well to get her shots.  Abby hasn't had shots since before she was my cat.  So um... 9 years?  Yeah, she's kind of the neglected child.  My thinking was that we should get her shots done, get her groomed and then list her for free on KSL.

Yes, we are done with our cat.  She doesn't like us, which causes us to not like her.

Lance did some research and decided he would rather leave her at the Humane Society for them to find her some new parents.  That was cheaper.  It was a sadder option, since we have no idea what will happen to her, but I think we did the right thing.  I hope she will get someone who doesn't have dogs and someone who doesn't care if her hair is all over their house, or if she pees on the carpet, or if she won't let you pet her, or if the only time you see her is when she's out of food and she's pretending to like you so she can get more.

I'm sad she's gone, but not because we don't have her anymore.  I'm sad because I hope she's OK.  I hope they don't put her down.  I feel guilty.  Lance says there is a 95% adoption rate on cats, so that makes me feel a little better.

I did have a dream last night that my family was giving up Jessica for adoption.  I woke up confused and sad and wondered why Jessica?  Why anyone?  Then I figured it was probably my worries about Abby making me dream weird things.

Later on Saturday, we went to the Melting Pot with Katie and Eric to celebrate Katie's birthday.  This was my second time going.  My first time my company picked all the options, which were delicious, but it was nice to get to choose our own this time.

Way too much food.

We did a four course dinner.  So Eric and Katie chose a cheese for dipping, and we chose a cheese for dipping.  We thought that would be cool since we could try more cheeses that way.  Which, it was cool, however, I was full by the end of it.  I ate my salad afterwards anyway, thinking it would be nice and refreshing, which it was.  Then we had a break while they got our broth for our meat course ready.

The meats were good, but really, dessert is where the party is at.  Again we got two different chocolate sauces.  We tried the Yin and Yang and the S'mores.  Both were delicious.  I have to say I liked the Yin and Yang the best.  It comes out looking like this:

Pretty cool!  The S'mores they light on fire (using Bacardi 51, I asked...).  And that's cool too!  It was a delicious dinner.  Too expensive to say I'll be back soon.  However, I will be back.

Sunday we celebrated Lance's sister Nicole's birthday.  We went to Adventure and Learning park by Lone Peak high school and spent the afternoon there with Lance's family.  It was nice, except for the bees.  And the heat. And we ran out of non-caffeinated drinks, so I was dang thirsty!  But it was still nice.  It was nice not thinking, "I should visit my parents since we're so close."  But then it was sad, because I wanted to visit my parents and I couldn't.

Bittersweet all around.

Friday, August 26, 2011

A Heart Full of Love

It would be a shame to not share how greatful I am to my Heavenly Father for these past few months.

Back in February, Lance and I decided that we want to start a family.  Well, we already were a family, but a bigger family, you know, with children.  We felt really good about the decision, but we wanted to have one last big vacation with just the two of us, so that's when we planned our Disney World vacation.

After we got home from Disney World I looked for a new doctor.  I really wanted a female, someone who could empathize with me, someone who has been there before and knows exactly what I'm going through.  I did not want a man who only knows what other women have told him.  I called around and found out that Dr. Alicia Jones was accepting new patients.  I immediately made an appointment, for May 17th.

I had to go to the doctor before trying for a baby because I was using an IUD as my form of birth control, and I wasn't about to take it out on my own.  Also, I heard it's good to get a physical and all that fun stuff before you get pregnant.  So all that fun stuff happened May 17th. 

It seemed immediate, the blessings we received just for trying to start a family.  I received a raise in June, and Lance received a very large raise in July (17%).

July 9th I took a pregnancy test and it was positive.  I was 5 weeks along.

Life does throw trials at you.  At the beginning of August, my family decided to move across the country to North Carolina, which they did, August 15.  It was really hard for me to accept because I wanted them there for my pregnancy.  I wanted them there to help take care of the baby next summer so I could go back to work.  I never really realized how much I had planned for them to constantly be in the picture though this whole journey.

Last week, Lance received a job offer from a very good company.  It would have been a pay cut, but he would get health benefits.  To me that seemed like the answer to all of my worries.  I could just stay home, or only work part time and not have to worry because his job would provide health benefits, whereas right now mine provides them and his does not.

When Lance told his current boss about the offer, he did NOT want Lance to leave.  And offered him another 14% raise.  How can you pass that up?  That's 33% in raises for Lance, just this year.  We thought about it, and decided we couldn't turn it down. 

I spoke to my bosses about possibilities of keeping health coverage while only working part time, and I feel comfortable with my options.  I'm hoping after the baby comes they'll let me work from home 100%, while keeping my current duties.  For those of you who speak DataWise, this means I do not want to go back to being a coder.  I enjoy all of my responsibilities (besides checking... still finding a replacement for that one) too much to let them go.  I don't think Dana and Donni want me to let them go anyway.  Dana said he valued me as an employee and he'd rather have me part time than not at all.

I still have 6 months to sort everything out, but I at least feel at peace with where we are at.  I'm due March 11, 2012.  But I think I will have the baby on St. Patrick's day.  :-)

On a side note, I'm 98% certain I'm having a boy.  His name will be Liam.  Still working on a middle name.  If I'm wrong and it is a girl, she'll be Lily.

I have not been sick at all, whatsoever.  No nausea, never thrown up.  I was extremely tired for the first 10 weeks, but that finally went away.  I have gained 4 pounds.  I get lightheaded if I don't eat every three hours.  I crave vegetables, fruit, and french fries.  I have an aversion to Miracle Whip, which makes me really sad since I used to like it better than Mayo.  My clothes are getting tighter and I've had to put away some of my clothes that were purchased to be fairly tight.  Lately I've been craving Dr. Pepper, but when offered it doesn't tempt me.  It's quite strange.  It sounds good, but then I smell it and realize it won't taste as good as it did when I was addicted, and it's not worth falling off the wagon and getting addicted again.  I haven't had any since January! 

At my last appointment we got to see the baby and its little flicker of a heart beat.  My next appointment is September 1st, and we're hoping to hear the heartbeat.  Because I've had so few symptoms I worry that baby isn't growing.  We'll see.

Saturday, August 13, 2011

It's Hard

For me, when missionaries are about to come home, I have these ideas that they'll want to hang out and talk for hours and catch up on everything from the last two years and tell tons of missionary stories.

This has not been true in 2/2 cases.  They are quiet, don't have a lot to say or just don't know what to say.  They're not easy to talk to.  The person who comes home is not the same person who left.  It's hard. 

I never saw Eric when he came home.  The night he came home he told us a few missionary stories.  That was the last night he spent at home.  He moved out and then I don't remember seeing him again until he introduced Katie to us.  Thank goodness for Katie.  She helped Eric adjust and move on in life.  She's an amazing person and we are lucky to have her in our family.

Jared has been home for two days, but I still miss my little brother.  I miss the little boy who I used to jump on the trampoline with.  I miss the person who used to make up dances in living room with me and perform them for our parents.  I miss the person who was never embarrassed to hug me in the hallways at school. I miss the person who would call me, just because he was near my house and wanted to stop by.  I miss the silly voices he used to make.  I miss his humor.

Yes, my brother came home.  But he's not the same.  And it's hard.  I'm sure it's hard for him too.  He had a lot of people to miss.  I just had one.

So many things are changing right now that it's overwhelming.  The only way I know how to cope is to try to put into words how I'm feeling, and to cry while doing it.

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

You'll Find Yours

It's not OK.

I'm independent and I don't need my family.  Until now. 

At this time in my life when I need them the most, that's when they're leaving?  It's a joke that isn't very funny.

Poor Emilee.  She's not doing so well either.  I know how she feels.  We moved when I was 12, almost 13.  I felt like my world was being torn apart.  I felt like I would never be happy again.

I went from having a close group of 12 friends to 0.  I had no friends.  I was often alone.  I cried a lot. I used to eat lunch in the girls' bathroom to avoid asking random people if I could sit with them, or to avoid sitting at a random table and being stared at.  I couldn't find my way around school and I had to ask people for help.

Eventually I met Jeehie Sung.  A cute, tiny Korean girl who was always smiling and happy.  She sat next to me in French class.  She introduced me to a group of people who were pretty nice.  I got invited to a birthday party and I didn't want to go.  My mom made me. I cried, I threw a tantrum, I didn't have a real birthday present.  I went. And I had my real first conversaion with Sierra.

Sierra is the only friend I kept out of this group of new friends.  We just get eachother.  We just had this... connection (for lack of a better word) the first time we had a conversation.  It was as if we were always friends.

So, Emilee.... what I'm saying is... moving is hard, extremely hard.  It's sad.  It's scary.  It feels like your whole world is being torn apart.  But eventually you'll find your Sierra.

In other news, Jared comes home in 22.5 hours. I am so excited!

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

The Right Way

...four days later and I am now in Mosiah.  I'm pretty pleased with how I'm sticking to reading scriptures every day, and how much I read each day.

I moved out of my parents house last night.  It sounds funny but I had a closet there that was still full of my stuff.  I threw most of it away, but I took some of it.

My parents are selling and giving away everything in their house.  That really depresses me.  They have a lot of nice stuff.  It seems like such a waste!  Maybe it was a waste to purchase the items in the first place.  Basically, they are all going to be out of the house and on the road in 12 days.  Mon petit frer gets home in 8 days.  That means he has 4 days with his family until they're outta here.  It's all happening so fast.  I wish I were going with them.  I love the east coast.  I love the south.  I love the southeast coast.  I want to have a southern accent.  I want chicken and waffles and grits.  Mostly I want my family.

Lance and I are planning to have Thanksgiving in North Carolina (or New Jersey, depending on where my family will be) and Christmas in Utah.  I'm super excited because they'll be having Thanksgiving with Leslie and Al and Kyala and Analise and Daniel!  Leslie is my dad's sister.  She used to live in Arizona and we had Thanksgiving with her every year, but now she lives in New Jersey along with the other people I mentioned.  It will be awesome.

Jared might move in with Lance and me.  That will be fun.  It will probably motivate us to keep our house cleaner.

Life has many twists and turns, ups and downs.  But as long as you follow Christ, you'll know you're going the right way.