Sunday, October 14, 2012


I'm off early today.

Whaaa?  3:45 am is early?

Yes, my friends, it is.

Grand total of hours last pay period?

...Drum roll please.....


Hello, shopping spree.

Just kidding, who has time for that?  Not this girl.

In other news: I am 5 pounds away from my pre-pregnancy weight!  Wow!  I thought this day would never come!

I fit into my wedding ring, finally.

I fit into my favorite pair of jeans, finally.

Unfortunately, my top half is about two inches lower than it used to be.  I need to visit Victoria.

I haven't judged my bottom half.  I probably won't.

Lily is pretty much crawling.  It's not a real crawl, but she can get from here to there if she wants to.

Cutest butt ever.

She loves to sing.  She loves to dance.

She loves her daddy.

She loves seeing us when she wakes up in the morning, or from a nap.

She loves sleep.

Yesterday, she slept 20 out of the twenty four hours in the day.


She must be growing again.

My post is reminding me of someone.

Oh, right, my sister, whose posts are always fascinating.  :-)  Love her.

I'd like to leave you with more about my decision to stop eating meat.

D&C Section 89

Given for a principle with promise, adapted to the capacity of the weak and the weakest of all saints, who are or can be called saints.
12  Yea, flesh also of beasts and of the fowls of the air, I, the Lord, have ordained for the use of man with thanksgiving; nevertheless they are to be used sparingly;
13  And it is pleasing unto me that they should not be used, only in times of winter, or of cold, or famine.

The Word of Wisdom, which has been adapted to the capacity of the weakest if all saints, says, that it is pleasing unto Him that meat should not be used.  Winter, cold, or famine are the exceptions.  Personally, my thermostat says that I never live in the cold.   Perhaps meat would be a good food storage item since it freezes well, and when you do eat it, it keeps you full for a long time.

In heaven, will we eat meat?  

I don't know.

Saturday, October 6, 2012

Semi-Annual Resolutions

Instead of New Years' resolutions, I want to make semi-annual resolutions.  Just after conference, in April and October.  I want to make goals in my life as inspired by conference.

I am so loving this idea.

Conference started with a bang!  18 year old male missionaries and 19 year old female missionaries.

This is a big deal!  I was so excited to hear this.  Why?  Because my little sister, Emilee, has wanted to go on a mission for a long time now, and now she doesn't have to wait as long.  She also gets to come back being younger than she would have been when she left in the first place with the old age limit.  I am so excited for her!  She is truly a great example to me.

So many talks this morning inspired me. I wish I had been taking notes...  :-(

Three more wonderful sessions to go!

Friday, October 5, 2012


My work week is Sunday night to Thursday night.  In that time I:

  • Showered once.
  • Got dressed 0 times.
  • Never put on makeup.
  • Ate 7 times.
  • Worked 61.75 hours.
  • Left the house 0 times.
  • Lost 2 pounds
The most consistent sleep I got was probably 2.5 hours at a time.

I only showered once because... if I had time to take a shower, I'd take a nap.

I never got dressed or put on make up because, well... I never left the house, so what's the point?

I ate 7 times in 5 days because... if I had time to prepare something, I'd take a nap.  So, basically I wouldn't eat until it was time to work.  I drank a TON of Coke.  I spiked my Simply Raspberry Lemonade with Rockstar Lemonade.

In preparation for the presidential debate that happened this past Wednesday, we had a TON of work.  Long hours, late nights, no sleep.  But seeing the results of these polls is highly entertaining and interesting.

The worst night of work: I had freaking 10 coding merges.  Coding merges SUCK because there are a ton of tiny little steps to do to make sure the finished product is accurate and clean.  The people who converted some of these projects in the first place didn't add the open ended questions to the layout, so that means I had to add a million little characters to the SPS file, layout and E file.

Ok so that last part probably made ZERO sense to anyone who reads this.  But UGH!  Just UGH!!!!!!

Not to mention, that when you are the one in charge of coding merges, you first have to wait for the final data on the project, and then you have to wait for the coding to be completed.  And THEN if it's for Adam Gellar you have to wait for the verbs to be cleaned.   I just like having everything all at once, to be completed on MY terms.  But that is not reality.

I lost 2 pounds!  This is most likely due to the above statement of eating only 7 times in  5 days.

On Monday, I made a lasagna for a sister that I visit teach.  I have yet to deliver it to her, but that's besides the point.  I made it!  In my hectic, hellish life I took time to do something for someone else.  Dang right I'm proud of myself.  "Unless we lose ourselves in service there is little purpose to our own lives."  Or something like that.

Anyway, the real reason I'm mentioning the lasagna is because I put meat in it.  I also made an eggplant Parmesan lasagna for Lance and me.  YUMMM!!  Lance said it needed meat, but I think he's just brainwashed into believing that.

Growing up, I never had a meal without meat.  It makes me nervous to go visit my family.  Last night I talked to my mom.

ME: What's for dinner?
MOM: Beef stroganoff.
ME: What do you have for vegetarians?
MOM: You can just not eat the meat.

Haha!  It doesn't work that way.  You still killed the cow.  I'm not going to go around ordering hamburgers and not eating the patty.

Tuesday, October 2, 2012


Here is a started entry from this week that I never finished.

I have to be honest.  I'm fighting extremely hard to not have a nervous breakdown.  Every single day I can feel myself slipping closer and closer.  The only thing I can manage to tell myself is, "It could be worse."

I can't lie to myself.  It CAN be worse.  My problems and struggles in life are not harder than anyone else's trials in life.  Everyone has their fair share of ups and downs.  I never want to be the person who thinks they have it the worst, because I know I don't.  But I do know that my limits are being pushed, and pushed hard.

I have no one to blame but myself.  I decided to keep my job.  Granted, I decided that for nothing other than insurance benefits, but still, I chose this.  I chose to have a baby. I chose to buy this house.  These are all self inflicted trials.

On the other hand, there are other things going on that are completely out of my control.  Lance's mother is not doing well.  I haven't really posted about it because it's kind of a sensitive subject.  It has brought a lot of tears.